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Kui kajab muusika ('When music echoes') (1981)


Part of a series or song cycle:

Kolm laulu Betti Alveri luulele (3 songs on poems by Betti Alver)


Kui kajab muusika ('When music echoes')

Kui kajab muusika ja naeruhääl on hele,
Näod hõõguma ju löövad rõõmuroast,
Siis läbi linna lumeväljadele
Ma tasakesi põikan pidutoast
Nüüd kustub kaugel kumav aknarida.
Täis pilkusid on taevapimedik.
Ma seisatan.
Sa tuled jällegi, mu kohtunik,
Ja küsid jälle jälle midagi.
Kuid mida, mida sa siis ei tea?
Sa näitad minule mu armetust
Ning jällegi on osatada vaja
Sul minu eluhoolt, mu elumaja,
mu enda hellitust ja edevust.
Su käes on korraga kui kulurohi
Mu rinnalt kistud hõbelill.
Nii raske, raske tuule rajuvil
Sa rebid kõik mu hingehilbud maha.
Ma oma võimetuses vahel vihkan sind!
Kuid sinuta, mu süüdistaja,
Ma siiski siiski elada ei taha,
Ma elada ei saa, ma elada ei tohi, tohi!

When music echoes

When music echoes and the laughing-voice is light,
Faces start glowing from the food of joy,
Then through the town to the snow-fields
I quietly sneak away from the party.
Now is extinguished the distant glowing line of windows.
Full of glances is the darkness of the sky.
I stop.
You come again, my judge,
And ask again and again something.
But what, what don’t you know?
You show me how pathetic I am
And again you mock
my life-care, my dwelling,
my self pampering and vanity.
Like dried grass in your hands
Is the silver flower torn from my bosom.
Even so, in a heavy, heavy raging wind
you tear off all the rags of my soul.
In my impotence I sometimes hate you!
But without you, my accuser,
I nevertheless do not want to live,
I cannot live, am not allowed to!

Composer

Ester Mägi is an Estonian composer, widely regarded as the First Lady of Estonian Music.


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Poet

Elisabet "Betti" Alver was one of Estonia's most notable poets. 


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(As part of a song cycle/series:)